Well maybe not quite like above, or quite yet. However, my internship with ATC has now come to a close and though I'm being contracted on a show by show basis I have no steady job or living space set in stone for the next few months. My parents have expressed their enthusiasm of the potential for me to come "home" for at least a short period (until I turn 30), yet I can't help but feel uneasy about accepting too eagerly.
I have played around with the idea of just traveling for the next few months. Visit friends, work odd jobs, take up macrame (just kidding). The problem becomes that I haven't sit still in probably 18 years and I'm not sure I'm any good at it. You know, just sitting, being content, not needing to do anything AND not feeling bad about doing it. The truth is though that when one fixates on work, work and relaxation don't happen in the same day typically so learn to balance the two together is difficult if it's never been done before. I have days of work and days of rest, and no amount of YouTube videos are going to make work feel relaxing.
I'm also a that tumultuous point in life when I really need to buckle down and go after a new goal. A year out of college and I've stayed busy, but I've just been spinning my wheels. I admit that a part of me believes that this is it and that's all there is, but the other half says I don't get to say that until I'm 50,m have 2 kids, and a 401K. Like a nomad I have the feeling that I can be anywhere, but I'm tentative to put roots in any one place just yet. For now I'm going to enjoy the freedom I do have and place less emphasis on what I do, and more on how I do it.
I have played around with the idea of just traveling for the next few months. Visit friends, work odd jobs, take up macrame (just kidding). The problem becomes that I haven't sit still in probably 18 years and I'm not sure I'm any good at it. You know, just sitting, being content, not needing to do anything AND not feeling bad about doing it. The truth is though that when one fixates on work, work and relaxation don't happen in the same day typically so learn to balance the two together is difficult if it's never been done before. I have days of work and days of rest, and no amount of YouTube videos are going to make work feel relaxing.
I'm also a that tumultuous point in life when I really need to buckle down and go after a new goal. A year out of college and I've stayed busy, but I've just been spinning my wheels. I admit that a part of me believes that this is it and that's all there is, but the other half says I don't get to say that until I'm 50,m have 2 kids, and a 401K. Like a nomad I have the feeling that I can be anywhere, but I'm tentative to put roots in any one place just yet. For now I'm going to enjoy the freedom I do have and place less emphasis on what I do, and more on how I do it.
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